The vision is JESUS – obsessively, dangerously, undeniably Jesus.

The vision is an army of young people.

You see bones? I see an army. And they are FREE from materialism.

They laugh at 9-5 little prisons.

They could eat caviar on Monday and crusts on Tuesday.

They wouldn't even notice.

They know the meaning of the Matrix, the way the west was won.

They are mobile like the wind, they belong to the nations.

They need no passport..

People write their addresses in pencil and wonder at their strange existence.

They are free yet they are slaves of the hurting and dirty and dying.




What is the vision?




The vision is holiness that hurts the eyes.

It makes children laugh and adults angry.

It gave up the game of minimum integrity long ago to reach for the stars.

It scorns the good and strains for the best. It is dangerously pure.

Light flickers from every secret motive, every private conversation.

It loves people away from their suicide leaps, their Satan games.

This is an army that will lay down its life for the cause.

A million times a day its soldiers choose to loose that they might one day win the great 'Well done' of faithful sons and daughters.

Such heroes are as radical on Monday morning as Sunday night.

They don't need fame from names.

Instead they grin quietly upwards and hear the crowds chanting again and again:

“COME ON!”

And this is the sound of the underground.

The whisper of history in the making.

Foundations shaking.

Revolutionaries dreaming once again.

Mystery is scheming in whispers

Conspiracy is breathing…

This is the sound of the underground

And the army is discipl(in)ed.

Young people who beat their bodies into submission.

Every soldier would take a bullet for his comrade at arms.

The tattoo on their back boasts "for me to live is Christ and to die is gain".

Sacrifice fuels the fire of victory in their upward eyes.

Winners. Martyrs. Who can stop them?

Can hormones hold them back?

Can failure succeed? Can fear scare them or death kill them?

And the generation prays like a dying man with groans beyond talking, with warrior cries, sulphuric tears and with great barrow loads of laughter!



Waiting. Watching: 24 – 7 – 365.



Whatever it takes they will give: Breaking the rules.

Shaking mediocrity from its cozy little hide.

Laying down their rights and their precious little wrongs, laughing at labels, fasting essentials.


The advertisers cannot mould them.

Hollywood cannot hold them.

Peer-pressure is powerless to shake their resolve at late night parties before the cockerel cries.

They are incredibly cool, dangerously attractive inside.

On the outside? They hardly care.

They wear clothes like costumes to communicate and celebrate but never to hide.

Would they surrender their image or their popularity?

They would lay down their very lives - swap seats with the man on death row - guilty as hell.

A throne for an electric chair.

With blood and sweat and many tears, with sleepless nights and fruitless days, they pray as if it all depends on God and live as if it all depends on them.

Their DNA chooses JESUS. (He breathes out, they breathe in.)

Their subconscious sings. They had a blood transfusion with Jesus.

Their words make demons scream in shopping centers.

Don't you hear them coming?

Herald the weirdo's!

Summon the losers and the freaks.

Here come the frightened and forgotten with fire in their eyes.

They walk tall and trees applaud, skyscrapers bow, mountains are dwarfed by these children of another dimension.

Their prayers summon the hounds of heaven and invoke the ancient dream of Eden.

And this vision will be.

It will come to pass; it will come easily; it will come soon.

How do I know?

Because this is the longing of creation itself, the groaning of the Spirit, the very dream of God.

My tomorrow is his today.

My distant hope is his 3D.

And my feeble, whispered, faithless prayer invokes a thunderous, resounding, bone-shaking great 'Amen!' from countless angels, from hero's of the faith, from Christ himself.

And he is the original dreamer, the ultimate winner.

Guaranteed.Written By Pete Greig.

I AM GOING TO MOZAMBIQUE!!!

ITS OFFICIAL!!!

I HAVE BEEN ACCEPTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thankyou Jesus. What a wonderful birthday present :)

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Psalm 37 - NKJV

1 Do not fret because of evildoers,
Nor be envious of the workers of iniquity.
2 For they shall soon be cut down like the grass,
And wither as the green herb.

3 Trust in the LORD, and do good;
Dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness.
4 Delight yourself also in the LORD,
And He shall give you the desires of your heart.

5 Commit your way to the LORD,
Trust also in Him,
And He shall bring it to pass.
6 He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light,
And your justice as the noonday.

7 Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for Him;
Do not fret because of him who prospers in his way,
Because of the man who brings wicked schemes to pass.
8 Cease from anger, and forsake wrath;
Do not fret—it only causes harm.

9 For evildoers shall be cut off;
But those who wait on the LORD,
They shall inherit the earth.
10 For yet a little while and the wicked shall be no more;
Indeed, you will look carefully for his place,
But it shall be no more.
11 But the meek shall inherit the earth,
And shall delight themselves in the abundance of peace.

12 The wicked plots against the just,
And gnashes at him with his teeth.
13 The Lord laughs at him,
For He sees that his day is coming.
14 The wicked have drawn the sword
And have bent their bow,
To cast down the poor and needy,
To slay those who are of upright conduct.
15 Their sword shall enter their own heart,
And their bows shall be broken.

16 A little that a righteous man has
Is better than the riches of many wicked.
17 For the arms of the wicked shall be broken,
But the LORD upholds the righteous.

18 The LORD knows the days of the upright,
And their inheritance shall be forever.
19 They shall not be ashamed in the evil time,
And in the days of famine they shall be satisfied.
20 But the wicked shall perish;
And the enemies of the LORD,
Like the splendor of the meadows, shall vanish.
Into smoke they shall vanish away.

21 The wicked borrows and does not repay,
But the righteous shows mercy and gives.
22 For those blessed by Him shall inherit the earth,
But those cursed by Him shall be cut off.

23 The steps of a good man are ordered by the LORD,
And He delights in his way.
24 Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down;
For the LORD upholds him with His hand.

25 I have been young, and now am old;
Yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken,
Nor his descendants begging bread.
26 He is ever merciful, and lends;
And his descendants are blessed.

27 Depart from evil, and do good;
And dwell forevermore.
28 For the LORD loves justice,
And does not forsake His saints;
They are preserved forever,
But the descendants of the wicked shall be cut off.
29 The righteous shall inherit the land,
And dwell in it forever.

30 The mouth of the righteous speaks wisdom,
And his tongue talks of justice.
31 The law of his God is in his heart;
None of his steps shall slide.

32 The wicked watches the righteous,
And seeks to slay him.
33 The LORD will not leave him in his hand,
Nor condemn him when he is judged.

34 Wait on the LORD,
And keep His way,
And He shall exalt you to inherit the land;
When the wicked are cut off, you shall see it.
35 I have seen the wicked in great power,
And spreading himself like a native green tree.
36 Yet he passed away,^[a] and behold, he was no more;
Indeed I sought him, but he could not be found.

37 Mark the blameless man, and observe the upright;
For the future of that man is peace.
38 But the transgressors shall be destroyed together;
The future of the wicked shall be cut off.

39 But the salvation of the righteous is from the LORD;
He is their strength in the time of trouble.
40 And the LORD shall help them and deliver them;
He shall deliver them from the wicked,
And save them,
Because they trust in Him.

I have been praying all week about when I should write my ‘back home’ update and more importantly, what the content should be. So many have asked what the purpose was of my trip, what God did there and why He kept me so long. I will only be able to answer in part. To a certain extent because I only know in part and to another, because there is so much that I, as Mary did, am keeping close to my heart. However, as I sat with Jesus this evening and asked Him His heart, He told me that it was time to write.

We need to be prepared.

So often we hear that, are told it, remember it and yet it has not sunk in. Jesus is not coming in thousands of years time, He is coming far sooner than we realize and that means that the rest of what was prophesied is coming far sooner than we realize. No I haven’t gone to IHOP and become an end times fanatic, but what I have realized, one of the major things that God did, was open my spiritual eyes and undeafen my spiritual (as well as natural ears) to the world today, to the signs of the times, to the fact we are living in the ‘birth pains’ of the end times. To the priority that Jesus placed upon being ready, upon seeing the signs of the times, upon NOT BURYING OUR HEADS IN THE SAND BECAUSE IGNORANCE MEANS LESS RESPONSIBILITY. We have chosen to blind ourselves and live in our created bubbles because then we do not have to face that which challenges every arena of our Christian faith. But that cuts swathes out of the bible, do you realize? We must, as a corporate body, be living as the early church did, ready and expectant for Christ’s return SOON and therefore the events that come with that. Why? Because Jesus said to. And because if we cannot instantly see the signs of the times, if we do not know what to expect, if we are not grounded in an intimacy with God far deeper than we have ever known or hungered for, we will be swept away.

I was reading that ‘rapture’ passage the other day about two being in the field and one being taken away etc. As I read it I saw a totally different context. I do not believe Jesus was talking about the rapture at all, the context and mood with which He said the statement was one of something with the surprise and force of a tsunami hitting, almost a picture like in Lord of the Rings II when the trees are fighting in the battle and the waters are released. They were able to cling onto the ground and stand as everything else was swept away. In the same way, when the time of tribulation arrives, when persecution comes, when the INEVITABLE happens in lieu of Jesus’ return (hallelujah!), if we are not ROOTED in our God, forsaking all else, not offended with His choice of action of judgment but understanding our identity in Him and His sovereignty and at the same time reside in a place of immense intimacy with Him that is totally separate from the world, ‘fixing our eyes on things above’ then we will be swept away like one in a field when something like a tsunami hits. One will stand and the other will disappear in an instant. If we are NOT READY and do NOT KNOW the sings of the times, we will not stand before we even have realized why.

Notice the storm clouds on the horizon and smell the rain. To fear? No. To get right with God, to get with God, to call out to Him for the promised great harvest, to get new perspective, to embrace the coming days when He will be glorified on the earth and EVERY knee will bow.

Jesus says that just like in the Days of Noah, just because we have not seen something, doesn’t mean it does not exist or is not coming. The people had not seen rain, the ark seemed such a fruitless effort which they scoffed and mocked as they got on with ‘normal life’. Just as in the days of Noah, if we do not understand the ark blueprint we have been given, the ten virgins, the beatitudes, intimacy, oil of His presence, seeking His face, forsaking all else, RADICAL COMMITTED lives with NO COMPROMISE, when the rain starts to fall….it will be too late.

Do you get yet why Jesus was so adamant, why He gave so many parables? Look at the ten virgins. ALL of them knew the bridegroom, ALL of them followed Him in waiting for their marriage, what happened? Five of them did not have extra OIL for their lamps. Oil speaks of intimacy, it speaks of the overflow of Holy Spirit in our lives that is cultivated and gotten from the secret place, from spending our time with Jesus, understanding truly what it means to be in this world but not of it. They went back to get this oil when they realized but by then the ‘rain was falling’ so to speak, when they returned….it was too late.

What was Jesus saying? The time is SOON we have GOT to live as though it is imminent. We have to get right, we have to allow God to restore a holy fear of God within us, to cut out compromise, to live radically, to allow Him to change us, renew us and kill us for His purposes. We must understand who He is and the ties ahead that we will not be offended by Him because we will remain consumed with such a deep love for Him. He loves us with an unending love, He desires such intimacy as we do not even have hunger for yet. Will we pursue Him?

I asked Him the value of studying end times, I was always so anti it, thought it was just fear-mongering until I understood what it was, it is a context, it is a CONTEXT of our worship, our prayers, our hunger, our ministries. When we realize His return is imminent, when we understand the gravity of the tribulation, when we start to comprehend that this life is NOT all there is and that very soon the earth will end, our desperation for intimacy deepens, our perception of eternity changes, our longing for His face and Will increases and we begin to walk with our eyes fixed upon Him and not upon here except to plead with Him to give us His heart for the lost that we might cry out to Him for mercy and go to them with burning hearts to see them saved before it is too late.

We have become apathetic beloved. We have become complacent and apathetic.

Why did He make me deaf for two weeks? Why was I stranded in a difficult situation? Why was I ill and so many things came up in such a short time? Why was I at IHOP? What did God do or teach me or say? He broke me. He opened my eyes to so much, He taught me that I cannot fix anything. He re-taught me His sovereignty and renewed my fear of Him. He pulled my perspective once again more in line with His rather than leave it where I was comfortable, ignoring great swathes of the bible. He brought people into my life who are going to have eternal impact, He worked through heart stuff, but most of all, He taught me more about the tender and delicate fragrance of intimacy, 24/7 prayer and worship cultivated intimacy. If we will humble ourselves and pray, and turn from our wicked ways, He will heal our land. How willing are we to humble ourselves and turn from our wicked ways and spend time at the feet of our beloved Jesus? How eager are we to get on our faces and see that which we say we pray for?

What do you want beloved of God? What do you really really want?



What are you willing to pay for it?

I'M HOME!!!

that is all (for now)

Nuff said.

Update:

Hey friends!

Thankyou for so faithfully praying and being so supportive and encouraging in the very interesting situation!

I just wanted to update you that it has got even more interesting as of yesterday as my travel/medical insurance has now just expired and so I am going to have to pay for everything from now on which, if you know anything about America, is some of the most expensive medical bills in the world! I need healing or divine favor and would appreciate your continued prayers for this is a quite a catch 22 situation because without healing or medical attention, I remain stranded here and unable to fly.

I miss you all so much and cant wait to finally be in the capacity to talk to you all properly! In the meantime, emails are appreciated but prayers even more so! Thankyou for standing with me in this kinda stressful situation and may God be glorified through it! Hallelujah

In Jesus always, your sister in Christ

Claire

p.s. YAY FOR SNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

James 1:2-4 "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance [endurance and steadfastness and patience - AMP]. Perseverance [endurance and steadfastness and patience] must finish its work [But LET patience have its perfect work - NKJV] so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything"

SO much today has been about rest and about perseverance and patience. The same hebrew word seems to be able to be translated perseverence and patience which is so significant.

I asked God about the significace of these being the same word in Hebrew and He spoke to me and said that Patience without perseverence breeds apathy and contentment with less and can leave us stangnant. Perseverence is linked with hope and moving forward in faith with vision and we all know that without hope/vision, the people perish. However, perseverance without patience is equally as detrimental as it is the wrong heart attitude and has the potential to cause us to command and demand of God in our own frameworks and timings. Only when the two are married and we are patient and totally content with His will and timing and yet are pressing in actively into His will and His face, will we see His Will done in His Timing in our lives.

Therefore I embrace the lesson this is teaching me. I will press in to His face and into His presence because (as I know full well) if I will not, I will die, I cant breathe without HIm, I cant function without Him. But I will be patient. I will no longer command this to happen by my schedule. When I get healed and go back to the UK it will be great because God will be taking me there. Before that point, I will walk to paths that are set here and trust Him for things like my finances. It is no longer that I do not know what to do, and its no longer that I live in a state of apathy, it is that I sit here in the knowledge that God has it and that His tming is better than mine. I do not know how this will all pan out, but it doesnt matter. God I just want you, I always just want to want you, nothing else, ever.

"Lord I give you my heart,
I give you my soul
I live for you alone
Every breath that I take,
Every moment I'm awake
Lord have your way in me"

So I am still here due to a persistent ear infection that will not go away! I am sitting in the prayer room where I am camping out all day until I get breakthrough in a tonne of stuff that has arisen this week and over the last few weeks but I have been ignoring. I need Him more than I have ever needed Him. He has broken me in such a way that terrifies me and kills me yet I have prayed for and longed for for so long. Oh God I am so desperately hungry for you, if you dont come, I cant go on, I just cant do this. I praise you that I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I praise you that I dont have t do this alone, I praise you that I am healed because you died, I praise you that you know how next week is going to work, I praise you for the people you have brought into my life and giving me the closest friend and sister I ever could have imagined, thankyou for your provision to get me here and giving me the vacation time to come and refresh and get sorted with you. Thankyou for taking the time and patience and energy to actually work this stuff out in me, to not just sort the superficial, but refuse to move or let me move til we have dug the roots out. God, your will not mine be done. Never have I prayed that with such earnest and such gravity as now God. Your will be done, please. It has gtta be you, all of this, it has gotta be you. I give up, I surrender, I give you it all. Thankyou that I can and do trust you. Thankyou for loving me, thankyou for caring, thankyou that your going nowhere, thakyou that Im not alone, thankyou that the lies arent true, thankyou that this is all in your plan, thankyou that you work it for good, thankyou that you are God.

Thankyou that YOU ARE GOD.


Your Will be done God. On Earth as it is in Heaven.

YOUR Will be done.

IHOP trip Kansas City 2006-2007

"And the fire on the altar shall never go out"

Leviticus 6:13

Our God reigns
Our God Reigns
Forever your Kingdom reigns!

Woweeee. So so so so much to write and neither the time nor the articulation to actually do so.(I am currently in the IHOP prayer room and grabbing a few seconds but trust me, this aint even the surface!)

[Onething New years conference]
Yesterday was a day of total wrecking, wowzer. I came here feeling so sick and tired and there was such a burden on my shoulders. To be honest I really hadn’t even noticed stuff. I hadn’t noticed how much the situation at work had hurt me and injured by self worth. I didn’t see the upset that certain events had caused me, I didn’t realize the extent to which my heart had closed up because it couldn’t handle the emotion that was flooding it. And I certainly did not realize until I was standing, weeping, yesterday at Onething, that I had prevented God from loving on me, I had stopped believing (or maybe I never did) that God loved me for me, for me, for me, for me.

I have written so much on here about striving. I have posted blogs, preached at people, understood with my highly overactive mind that grace is about a love that is completely independent of our striving. But yesterday God did something profound that rendered me broken and speechless. He called me His sister, His bride.

Jennifer Roberts was speaking and she pointed out; Someone who is your brother is one who shares all those ‘in’ family jokes, He has been there since the beginning, he knows your most embarrassing moments and knows you on your worst days and yet to also be called the spouse of Christ…means He chose me. Means that He loved me so much that EVEN THOUGH He knows all that stuff, Even though He has seen me at my very worst, is so aware of my failings, that I am just unable, screw up so often, am so human and self centred and full of pride…He has CHOSEN to make me His bride, to vow to be with me, to love me unconditionally. I have ravished His heart, I have captured it with one glance of my eyes.

It is a love that is terrifying, “God I don’t deserve it! Don’t love me like that! Love someone else, don’t you know im a liability?! I let you down!” It makes you wanna run, it makes you scared because it is so all consuming and so vulnerable, so complete, so beautiful, so full and abundant, so full of a grace that we don’t earn. For so long I have strived, for so long I have still walked in a way that is just trying to do something so that I might feel like I at least earned one tiny bit of Gods heart. And yesterday?

I realized I earned none of it…and never would.

Oh God oh God oh God. I love you too. With everything.



Thank you